I have decided

Have you? Do you know your values and your kind of perspective to this world. So I believe many of you can agree this with me, that when you have made up your mind in something or you are stepping out of ya comfort zone, suddenly the world turns around and everything is on pieces again. And then you get this feeling that you don't control your life at all. Even tho you still know what cost you to it.
 We as humans we I afraid being lost, but the fact is you have to loose yourself sometimes to understand your journey more again. It might feel uncomfortable and really sad.
  Here is an other chapter, of being sad and broken. All of us want to be happy and stay strong always. We often say  "Im done with this shit" and still wonder how we keep on going on. Was it yours to decide when to die? Have we forgotten why we are still here. Well if Im not totally wrong the answer would be God. Because of him we are still standing tall even tho our hearts are full of misery, but with that promise what you made with our loving Father,  that you decided to follow him, brings us the strength to continue and have that hope with us. Because we still have work to do. We are needed and wanted. But if you give up and don't even give the chance to seek around what he still has to give you. '
  I can tell you Im having a hard time now believing it too, but I know he sees our weakness and hurting. So all my job is to do now is to be open to him to take his mercy and caring love in to me fully. Im not giving up Im processing because I once decided to follow him and I admit that I'm tired and broken, I pray for his leading and help. Don't hide you weakness don't over push yourself , always stay true to yourself so you can give the best of you. Showing your feelings has more power than hiding them. Even tho you might never reach the final goal, but you know you have tried.
God is great, so are we his masterpieces.

I believe the best love story is the never changing truth of God loving us unconditionally and forever.